Reminiscence

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Your hands on my head were enough for me to feel good .
Your smile always gave me power to cut the wood .
But now that you’re not there
Who is gonna make me feel good ?
Who is gonna give me the power to cut the wood ?
Who is gonna give her hand to make me  feel better ?
How will I live without you ever ?

You were my strength .
But also my weakness .
Your support was enough for me to go through the length .
But what about now ?
How am I gonna survive,How ?

Who is gonna support me now ?
Who is gonna love the way you loved me now ?
Who is gonna be my strength ?
Who is gonna be my weakness ?

NOBODY .
Because nobody is as selfless as you are .
Nobody is as loving as you are .
Nobody is as caring as you are .
Nobody is as kind as you are.

You are my everything .
Without you I am hardly anything.
You are my soul .
But I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to fill up the  hole .

I wish you could stay .
I wish I could meet you for the one last time .
I wish you wouldn’t have lost you way .
I wish you and I could  shine again.
I wish I could see you smile for the one last time .
I wish in place of you I could have died.

Now only you will shine .
As you’ll turn into a star .
But I will be going through a war.

You’ll see me from there .
Whether I am happy here .
You’ll surely be around me .
But sadly I won’t be able to touch and feel.

I know you always loved me
But I want you to know that i have always loved you as well .
I’ve always admired you like hell .
You are an art.
And till I die you’ll be inside my heart .

Living without you would really be tough .
But I’ll try .
Life is gonna be rough .
But I’ll try to fly .

I’ll take time .
But I promise you that I’ll stand again .
I’ll stand again to make you proud .
I am hurt .
But I’ll take things out .

I really really love you .
And will always love you till I die .
I will miss you .
Your memories will always make me cry .

I am sure your strong blessings will give me strength to walk again .
But nothing can ever deny the fact that your name
Will always make the clouds rain .

I am sorry that I left you there .
And had to come here .
I am sorry you couldn’t see me in your last breath .
I am sorry for everything wrong I did .
I know I am not a good grand daughter .
But believe me you’re the best grandmother .
Your loss is never gonna heal ,I know .
But as I said I’ll try .
I’ll try to make you proud .
I’ll try to fly .
But I will need your help there .
You need to be here .
You are here right ?

189 thoughts on “Reminiscence”

      1. I don’t know. I will ask them and persuade them to open up.

        hehe, I know that. I meant we don’t have be a celebrity sort superstar, if we are fulfilling out dream or on the path of fulfilling it, we are our own superstar.

        Oh, really? *happy tears*
        Thank you, thank you. πŸ˜€

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      2. Oh ok.
        :O

        I thought as no one was reading, I can just read others..
        I mean soon. πŸ˜›
        I am actually doing a #A2ZChallenge so not getting the time to write.

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      3. πŸ˜›

        Well basically, it is a month long challenge where bloggers (all over the world) blog/ write on a theme, the titles of which start with the alphabets from A to Z. Its’ a post a day, excluding Sundays.

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      4. Ji aap he ho. Pakka. 😁
        Ye toh bas bahana hai. Asal me aap lazy Ho he nahi.

        Why, thank you for the confidence. 😊
        Hopefully, I’ll do it.

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      5. See agar lazy hote toh reply late dete.
        Dekho main kitna late deta hoon. 😁😜

        I am kidding.
        I don’t know whether you are or not, but I believe no one is really lazy. Just feel like they are.
        Ok, too much gyaan. 😜😁

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      6. Arre, bahut mehnat. naya notification aaya- phone is 2 feet away – the questions in the mind – “baad me dhekta hoon”, “important msg nahi hoga, baad me he dheklete hai” – but finally gets phone (after 30 minutes) – then replies. Dheko kitni mehnat lagti hai. 😜

        I am that person. 😁
        You got up right? See, not lazy. Hence proved. 😜

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      7. Mera phone 2feet nahi 5cm door hota hai .
        Phir notification aata hai .uske baad reply kar deti hu .
        Usme bhi sirf hath kaam kar rahe hote hai bass (fingers )

        I am lazy but I don’t know how to convince you.

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      8. Instantly, you mean. Good to know. 😊

        Arey dekho, if you convince me then this conversation would end, na?
        But anyhow, aapne bahut mehnat ke convince karne keliye. Maan he leta hoon. 😁 aap bahut lazy ho. 😜

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  1. I am a grandmother with grandchildren who will find my death very painful. Can you tell me something I can do to make it easier for them to cope when that time comes? Thanks for visiting my blog and marking my follow. I will also follow you. See you.

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    1. There are things which are not is your hands.
      They’ll miss you.
      They’ll break down.
      Because they love you.
      And you can’t do any thing about it.

      But yes if you enjoy each and every sec with them.
      They’ll atleast not regret anything.
      They’ll surely feel bad.
      But your soul or spirit will give them support and strength to live.

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  2. sad.I’m sorry for your loss Siddhidiksha, I reall likes these lines

    “Living without you would really be tough .
    But I’ll try .
    Life is gonna be rough .
    But I’ll try to fly .”

    I admire you for your strength inspite of everything.I think this is all you ll need to soar in skies. Keep writing πŸ™‚

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